Anybody?

topic posted Wed, September 26, 2007 - 6:20 PM by  Jenn
I have the weirdest rutials. They are very embrassing. I feel like I have to hide them. Anyone else? So I don't feel like such a weirdo?
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Jenn
  • Re: Anybody?

    Wed, September 26, 2007 - 11:15 PM
    You want to do a comparison? :)

    1. Chewing on the left side of my lower lip.
    2. Scratching at bug bites or bumps. Then scratching at the scabs. Then scratching the scars and starting it all over again.

    [Both 1 and 2 are a form of self-injury, which often helps a person cope with anxiety. Unfortunately, it's not a GOOD way to cope with anxiety.]

    3. Washing my hands. Opening the door from the kitchen to the garage with a paper towel. Then opening the washer and dryer with the same paper towel. Thus my hands are still clean when I pull the clean clothes out of the dryer.

    4. Opening all bathroom doors with a paper towel, i.e., all public restroom doors.

    5. Spinning the TP a little to get it past the last square removed, to avoid other people's germs on the TP. Then pulling off a piece and putting it behind the toilet, for me to toss when I'm done. Then taking a was of TP and cleaning off the toilet seat. Checking the front of the toilet to ensure someone hasn't accidentally dribbled down the front (either blood or urine), or possibly accidentally slapped their tampon against the front of the toilet when removing it. [I don't want that touching the back of my blue-jeans, thank-you-very-much.] Then putting down 2 toilet seat covers into the toilet water, to remove the possibility of "splash-back". The 3rd toilet seat cover goes on the seat. It never fully adequately covers the seat, so about 6 strips of TP later (on top of the toilet seat cover), I can finally sit down and do my job.

    6. Turning off the faucet in public restrooms using a paper towel.

    7. Sneezing into my collar, or rather, pulling my collar free of my chest so I can stick my nose down my shirt when I sneeze. This is to avoid having germs in the crook of my arm or on my hands instead. And the shirt probably captures 99.999% of the sneeze germs, which has got to be better than sneezing into my hands.

    8. Using purell after going grocery shopping.

    9. If I've been in a medical facility, changing t-shirts when I get home, and washing my arms up to my elbows, as if I leaned on the arms of a chair, or had blood drawn (and had to put my arm down on the table for that), I want my arms to be free of germs.

    10. Avoiding people who have just sneezed or coughed.

    Crap, there's more. Zoloft has helped me to feel less anxious about all the above, but I still do most of my rituals. But then, I don't want to accidentally get sick while pregnant, and then have to have antibiotics. So, heh, that's my justification, LOL!
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      Thu, September 27, 2007 - 8:25 AM
      Most of those things about germs are because people are icky and don't wash. I don't lots of those too so I don't get sick. Nothing wrong with being careful.

      I feel this way about babies. Little germs bombs in my opinion. Every time a friend comes over with their kid, I get sick. Now they are not allowed in my house. If we are out, I don't want to sit near anyone under the age of 5.
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        Thu, September 27, 2007 - 1:45 PM
        LOL!!!

        Well, I'm doomed. Having my first child in 2 months. Germ bombs away!!!

        Maybe I'll be ok... we've had German Shepherds for about 7 years, with a 1 month break. Maybe my immune system is already all prepped for yet another germ factory, LOL!
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          Thu, September 27, 2007 - 3:21 PM
          Good luck and congrats! Just keep them in a plastic bubble away from all the other germs bombs and you'll be fine. LOL!
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      Thu, September 27, 2007 - 3:51 PM
      LOL. I do that to the toilet paper before I go to the bathroom or before I blow my nose. I chew on the insides of my cheeks & lip. I also wash hands constantly. I am like that about hospitals too.I could go on. I am basically a germ-aphob. Thanks I feel better now. I am trying to get things on track naturally. I don't like meds I am a phob about those too.
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        Thu, September 27, 2007 - 6:00 PM
        Yeah, I felt the exact same way about head-meds, LOL.

        But after talking to my shrink, it just sounded like a good idea.

        My husband LOVES the fact that I'm on medication!!! Had no idea how crazy I was driving him. :)

        Now I've been trying to get my Mom to go on them, LOL! [She's who I inherited the OCD from.] Sometimes she totally wigs out over stuff, and obsesses... I can totally see her OCD symptoms. And the thing is, she stresses herself out... and also drives me a little crazy, LOL! So I'm partially wanting her to be on meds for herself, and also for me. ;)

        She's going to be taking care of my son after he's born and after I have to go back to work. Really don't want her wigging out over it, LOL! I'm already stressing about it, but mostly out of guilt. But we need the money. I'll see my son in the evenings, and it's good for him to have more than just me and his Dad in his circle of trust.
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          Fri, September 28, 2007 - 7:44 PM
          I hope everything goes well with your baby. I think I just have to figure what I need to do. So confused, lol. Are the side effects bad on meds? I know some of my family has anxiety. My brother has only a few ocd traits I feel like the nut. I don't think they do what I do. But thats where talking to them comes into play. Having roblems with my mother. Long story she got divorced from my dad and kinda ignores us. I can't talk to her like I used to, sucks.
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            Fri, September 28, 2007 - 9:11 PM
            Thanks. :)

            The side effects can be reduced libido. But w/o the anxiety/depression, I can enjoy sex better even with the lower libido, LOL!

            Sorry you're having problems communicating with your Mom. Wonder why she's pulled away from you guys?

            Can you talk to your Dad??
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              Sat, September 29, 2007 - 8:49 AM
              Yeah I can and I think I may just do that. I was afraid they would think I'm weird but I did some thinking and well if I'm weird then I inherit that from them, lol. It's a long story about my mom. I really think she has head problems. I have noticed things about her since I was a kid.
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                Sat, September 29, 2007 - 2:03 PM
                There's a book you can give your parents. Well, since they are divorced, 1 book per person, LOL. :P Sigh.

                "The Boy Who Couldn't Stop Washing".

                www.amazon.com/Boy-Couldn...604-5818343

                I actually read it first, then went back through it and highlighted some things that I'd had in common with all the different patients in the book. Then gave my Mom and Dad the copy with the highlights so they could understand.

                Heh. I think, if I saw something my Mom had done, I underlined it too, LOL! She's who gave me my OCD I think. Dad definitely doesn't have OCD.

                Anyway, that book really spoke to me, and gave me a way of explaining OCD to my folks.

                It was funny... after my Mom read it, she was realizing that her own parents... both of them... had some very bizarre habits of their own that would totally fit in with OCD!

                I had hoped I might one day convince my Mom to get some treatment. She's mostly ok, but her ability to worry is really over the top. She's pretty set in her ways, though. She is 78, after all, LOL!

                Dad is 84. He's working as a security guard. His formal education was as an Engineer, but it's kindof hard to get people to hire older people in those kind of roles. But the job keeps him busy, and is probably extending his life, so...

                Maybe your Mom will read it and realize she could use some help? Don't know if your Mom is already kindof set in her ways or not. I think I'm a special case: I'm 39, and my parent's had me when they were in or near their 40's. And ironically, I'm having my first child, LOL.

                Hopefully, before our kids are having kids, my husband and I will already have our final years well planned out, maybe even a nursing home for old, geeky people, so our kids won't have to be worrying about taking care of us along with their kids! Well, maybe they'll have kids much earlier than we did. :)

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